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Living With Depression
Living life with depression is extremely difficult. Most days it is even hard to get out of bed. The things I once loved now seem to take up all of my energy. I wish it was easier and that I could spend my life living rather than fighting to survive each day. Despite the struggle, however, I know that I must keep fighting. I have been pushing aside everything that I need to do to help myself feel better for so long due to my lack of energy, but now it is time to figure out my life one day at a time.
Without An Identity
After living through an abusive childhood, knowing who I am as a person has been far from easy. I feel like I am behind all of my peers, which is a terrible feeling. I try to keep reminding myself that we are all in different places in our journey, so it is completely okay to not be exactly where others are at right now. Some days are harder than others, but I try my best to recognize that I deserve to figure things out at my own pace. I may not be where I want to be right now, but one day I will be. The day I discover who I am as a person will be the day that I will finally be able to say that I survived. I look forward to seeing that day.
Discovering My Identity
As I start my holiday break, I want to focus on improving me. Part of this is figuring out who I am as an individual. The other part is continuing to find my voice.
I Am Capable
After successfully completing a Speech Communications course this past semester, I now realize that I am capable of anything I set my mind to. I went into that class frightened and anxious, since communicating has never been easy for me. I doubted that there was even a chance that I could earn an A in the course. At the end of the course, however, I did earn my A. I can honestly say that I am now stronger for taking that course, both as a student and person. I also now know that I am capable despite what my mind may tell me.
Anything Is Possible
Being able to succeed in this course has given me a new perspective on life. I know that as long as I am willing to put in the work and dedication, anything is possible. With this in mind, it is time for me to start focusing on finding out who Mary is. This break is the perfect opportunity for me to start facing what I have been afraid to face for so long. I plan to start today, no matter how small the steps are. I might take longer than others in figuring out who I am, but this is okay, as long as I am making progress.
