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My voice is beautiful—and so am I. This is why I am speaking out today.
It’s Beautiful That Age Is Just A Number
Age is just a number. This is especially true in cases of trauma.
Dear 7-Year-Old Me, Your Voice Is Beautiful
Currently I am a 7-year-old in a 19-year-old body. Trauma has this affect on people. It has affected me my entire life.
My Voice Is Beautiful—And So Am I
At the age of seven, I witnessed my father trying to kill my mother during one of his alcoholic rages. I ended up having to call the police on my own father, yet did not feel like a hero despite being told I was for saving my mother. Mentally, I am stuck at this age because I had to grow up fast in order to survive. How do I help people understand my pain? I wish they could see me for me and not just as this 19-year-old girl who needs to get her life together.
Her Age Is Just A Number
It is extremely difficult to never be good enough for others. I am constantly told that I am an adult now, and it is so difficult hearing that statement when my mind is just not there. I am still that 7-year-old girl who needs to be nurtured and loved. She needs to be protected, yet she is facing a big and scary world that she has no clue how to handle. This little girl has always been alone and she just needs someone to understand her pain. Why can no one see her for her?
Help Others Understand You, Because You Are Beautiful
It sucks being in a world full of people yet never being understood by anyone. People see me but they don’t really see me. I wish someone could understand. I wish someone really knew me for me. I’m not sure anyone ever will, but I need to keep sharing my story even despite invalidation. Using my voice is the only way I will ever heal. I’m through with hiding. I am finally choosing to speak out. I hope you do the same, because your voice is beautiful.
